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Tag Archives: life
Venoms, repeated ponderings.
I was laying in bed having pretend conversations with people in my head and I liked what was happening and I remembered who I was and thought I should share it. Because that’s what writing is. You share things. How … Continue reading
Posted in 2023 Steam of Consciousness-ish, Non-Fiction
Tagged anxiety, hope, life, mental-health, psychology
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Praise
Praise God, it seems. I don’t know some days it’s so easy, but it’s important to celebrate that fresh wave of love when it does return, and ride it as long as possible. I think cherishing it makes it last … Continue reading
Posted in 1000 words, 2023 Steam of Consciousness-ish
Tagged 1000 words, hope, life, miracles
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Falling Into Place
An Adele song plays that I love, that I haven’t heard in ages. I can hear music again. A wellness coach I follow encourages occasional “consumption fasting” in order to get out of self-numbing patterns (not automatically watching shows or … Continue reading
Posted in 1000 words, 2023 Steam of Consciousness-ish, Non-Fiction, Non-Fiction 2023
Tagged 1000 words, christ, god, hope, life, manifestation, philosophy, streamofconsciousness
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Fear and Art, thoughts.
Fear fear fear fear, la la la la, fear fear fear fear, fear fear! This is the chorus of my subconscious, no matter what other lyrics abound. It all comes back to this. It is so automatic, so insidious, at every … Continue reading
Posted in Archive, Non-Fiction
Tagged art, fear, life, nonfiction, process, rambling
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Befriending
Jealousy. Bitterness. Spite. Rage. These course through me repeatedly at various intervals, turning the inner eye inside out. The minuscule veins bloom from the sight-bulb as it scans the lives of others through a putrid lens of desire. It’s an … Continue reading
Posted in Archive, Non-Fiction
Tagged anxiety, bipolar, Buddhism, depression, emotions, life, mental-health, philosophy, rage, recover, spirituality, transformation, wellness
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Briefs
Years ago I titled this blog after the realization that every day was a chance at redemption, that every day I has the opportunity to rise out of yesterdays ash and reach something higher. Not to suggest that each day … Continue reading
Posted in Archive, Non-Fiction
Tagged Buddhism, CDF, coredesiredfeelings, depression, life, manifestation, phoenix, selfhelp, selflove, trauma, wellness
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Perfect Sight
There is a white hot rage in me, mixed in with a black tar rotting decay. A festering volcano, the afterbirth of trauma. Lack of control of internal emotional processes. This is a legacy of being overpowered, you really lose … Continue reading
Posted in Archive, Non-Fiction
Tagged bipolar, crazy, demons, desi, growing up, growth, healing, life, madness, mental-health, pain, parents, philosophy, sorrow, trauma, woc, wounds
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Acceptance, Fear, Growing.
I have to accept where I am. I am not in a good place. I am not in a bad place. I’m in a difficult place. It can get better. It is getting better. I can’t do this alone. I … Continue reading
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Tagged life, mental-health
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Questions
There is no instruction manual. It’s hard to know what’s right. Check back in. How? Maybe I can. Check back in. Crisis. Danger and opportunity. Can it be repairable? I’m doing abysmally in school. How to refocus, to re-emerge, to … Continue reading